I have not told Amanda yet, though enough time and enough opportunities have passed. My wife has adjusted well to life on Vulcan, she is d'Vel'nahr, Vulcan-by-choice, still she is also human. And I know she would not understand my point of view. *Vulcan's* point of view.
It all started when the USS Enterprise returned from their mission concerning Genesis. The mission during which my son died. Now, he is alive and well again, the healer and the adepts are confident he will fully recover and regain all his memories.
As agreeable as this is, and as illogical as one may describe this emotion, I hope he won't regain *all* memories.
One in particular should best left buried forever. After Spock had died, I had hoped to save his essence, his katra, that is why I melded with Admiral Kirk. He was, as far as I knew, very close to my son, so he seemed to be a logical choice to carry his katra, should no Vulcan be available... I did not find Spock's katra, but something else instead.
We Vulcan's have very strict taboos concerning mind melds. One may not force another to give information that person does not wish to convey. And I did not intend to do so. But when I found an unconscious connection in Admiral Kirk's mind, I naturally thought of the possibility that it could be what I was looking for.
And it was a connection to Spock, but one I had not anticipated. In the depths of the human's mind, I found a Vulcan mind link. Kirk himself isn't aware of it, and I doubt Spock is, not now, after his rejoining. He must have been before, though I doubt he had intended to form this link, that Vulcans commonly describe as more-than-betrothal.
However, even should Spock not discover the link now, as soon as the time of his burning arrives, he will be drawn to the Admiral, consciously or not so...
That is why I decided to speak for him, not only because he saved my son -- though that plays an important part, too -- but because he will do so again, when the time has come. And Spock will let it be. Even though he knows the consequences of such a bond on Vulcan.
[Three years later]
I have just come from the ceremony. I hadn't planned to participate, but Amanda thought we should, so we did.
I cannot say I find these circumstances any more agreeable than I did three years ago... but kadiith... what is, is. To ignore it would be illogical, to abolish it the same.
So I joined my wife in the congratulations, and wished them a long and prosperous life together.
Tomorrow I will speak with T'Pau, and defend their link -- now a fully developed bond -- once again.
Although I still fail to see the logic in such a bond, between two males, a bond that cannot biologically produce offspring, maybe Amanda is right. Maybe it is something worth defending.
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