Barking commands, because that makes it easier to ignore my hunger to weep, I give the orders about Spock's burial garments. My junior officers gently point out that his body is too contaminated to handle. I snarl back that they must respect the burial rites and customs of other cultures and don radiation suits, in respect to Spock's heritage.I shout to keep myself from realizing it's all a lie--that I need him in those robes because they were his clothing the last time I kissed him. If he spends eternity in those robes, that encounter need never end.